non-sequitur

Ang panget na ng blog na to hindi na maayos. Mejo nakakatamad na kasi? Haha. Hindi na ko sanay ikwento yung buong araw ko. Kakatamad kasi. Tsaka ewan, siguro dahil sa theme. HAHA. Kailangan ko na magpalit para ganahan ako. Ayusin ko uli. Pero next time na kapag hindi na madaming ginagawa. Or kapag sobrang daming gagawin para cool kid. Joke.

Nasabi ko na naman pala na may gagawin ako na story. Para kasing nakakatuwa gawan yung kwinento ni Jc kanina. Haha. Basta about sa isang lalake tapos fairy na nagsshape shift tapos gagawin niyang sex slave. HAHAHA. Tapos explicit yung bed scenes. Erotica pala hahahaha. Gusto yon ni Regine. Joke. De gusto niya talaga ng mga ganon.

Minsan gusto ko na talaga gumraduate. Sobrang nakakawalang gana na kasi magaral. Lalo na kung hindi naman nakakachallenge o nakakaexcite mga prof. Ang meh lang ng datingan. At least kung graduate na ko pwede ako magpahinga muna ng ilang buwan bago magtrabaho. Tapos sa magazine ako magssulat habang cinucurate yung blog ko. Tapos titira ako sa apartment na malayoooo dito. Sulat din at research pero at least kumikita na di tulad ngayon.

Ang dami kong finofollow sa instagram na nakakainspire. Inunfollow ko na lahat ng online shops na finofollow ko kasi nalulungkot lang ako na hindi ko mabili mga gusto ko. Tsaka na yun kapag may scholarship na! Basta nakakaobsess tignan mga feed nung mga favorite ko. Nakakaamaze lang na kahit hindi DSLR gamit nila (karamihan iPhone) ang gaganda pa din ng shots nila. I was never into photography because I hate camera pero napapaisip tuloy ako na kung kaya naman nila, siguro kaya ko din? Kahit iPad gamit. Yehehes.

Mejo gusto ko na yung haba ng buhok ko ngayon. Parang gusto ko ma lang na hanggang dito na lang yung length. Parang mas bagay kasi? Kaso ang dami kong naiisip kapag mahaba buhok. Tsaka syempre, mas maganda pa din kapag mahaba. Ang hindi mabawi sa muka, sa ganda ng buhok idaan.

Ang dami kong gustong gawin. Ang dami kong gusto maging. Ang dami dami dami. Pero nagtataka pa din ako na sa dinami ng mga naiisip ko, wala pa din ni isa dun yung nagtutulak saken para kumilos. Para gumawa. Ewan ko ba. Sadyang tamad lang talaga siguro.

Wala na ko masulat. Wala pa kong research.

Jul 21, 2014 •
I’m almost never serious, and I’m always too serious. Too deep, too shallow. Too sensitive, too cold hearted. I’m like a collection of paradoxes.
Ferdinand von Schrubentaufft (via lalalalalle)
Jul 19, 2014 •

Sobra sobra akong tinatamad pumasok bukas. Tapos wala pang kasiguraduhan kung papasok ba yung dalawang prof na magkklase bukas. Ayoko sana pasukan yung klase ni Cabahug kasi parang… meh. Haha. Kaso isang beses pa lang ata ako pumapasok sakanya tsaka yung report kasi ni Arlo bukas eh AVP na gawa ni Jc so gusto ko mapanood hehe. Di ko sure kung papasok si Borican. Gusto ko umuwi ng maaga!!! Gusto ko lang humiga tsaka magbasa!!! Tangina tamad hanggang wakas.

Jul 17, 2014 •

COHF (spoiler???)

Naiinis ako sa nangyare kay Simon. I know mareregain niya din naman memories niya kahit matagal. I know sila pa din ni Isabelle sa huli (I hope). Pero ugh I WANT MORE!!! I want to know what happens next!!! Kaso wala, tapos na yung series. Sobrang ganda and I was content naman pero syempre… hay.

Jul 16, 2014 •
I’m a paradox. I want to be happy, but I think of things that make me sad. I’m lazy, yet I’m ambitious. I don’t like myself, but I also love who I am. I say I don’t care, but I really do. I crave attention, but reject it when it comes my way. I’m a conflicted contradiction. If I can’t figure myself out, there’s no way anyone else has.
Unknown (via jackieetran)
Jul 14, 2014 •

There are times I found myself longing to be alone, detached from all those I know. There is something about the quietness and stillness that allows one to breathe properly, govern their thoughts. Relationships—both the platonic and the romantic—are often messy and undoubtedly emotionally exhausting. Isolating oneself can give you enough time to replenish the supply you’ve exhausted. But I suppose wanting to be alone is just a form of selfishness. Because it is rooted from all the problems relationships are giving a person. But no one can ever be alone. People retreat, sure, in their minds but the longing for human contact—a friend’s laugh, a stranger’s smile, a lover’s touch, a parent’s advice—will eventually bubble up and resurface like a diver submerged briefly underwater. Suffice it to say that they will always come back. So perhaps there is nothing wrong with wanting to be alone however selfish it may seem so since the assurance of permanence is never really there. The only question is, after a time of solitude, after withdrawing, will the ones a person left welcome him back into their arms? Or is it too late?

Jul 14, 2014 •

Dangerous Girls

inrianity:

I decided to read Dangerous Girls after finishing E. Lockhart’s We Were Liars not just because I suddenly seemed to have a certain fondness for suspense/mystery books but also because I have been reading reviews on Goodreads comparing the two and I was overcome with the need to find out whether they were really comparable or not.

(Hint: they aren’t.)

The book is about Anna under court trial after being suspected of Elise’s murder—who just happens to be her best friend—while on a debaucherous trip to Aruba. Anna’s boyfriend, Tate, is also under scrutiny but due to his parent’s wealth and influence, charges against him are dropped leaving Anna alone to deal with all the horrors and accusations. 

I spent five hours gorging on this, allowing myself to succumb into Anna’s mind completely and I must say I thoroughly enjoyed it despite the ending that left me not only screwed over and doubtful of the things I just read but also quite disappointed on how it was delivered. And as much as I want to move on from this and read the next one on my queue, I am still consumed with what I’ve read leaving me with no choice but to write about it as best as I could and hope I can dispel the array of emotions that almost ate me up while reading this.

(I say this like it’s a bad thing but it’s actually not. I just want to let this all out here as none of my friends have ever read this.)

Lots of spoilers under the cut since I am unable to shut my mouth so I suggest reading the book first before going through this. This way, I won’t get any messages saying I spoiled or ruined the ending for you. 

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this is the longest book review i’ve ever written!!! mejo nadala ng feels kasi nakakaputangina!!!! at dahil ~mejo~ proud ako, sa english blog ko pinost!!! tapos nireblog ko dito kasi hindi niyo naman finafollow yung blog ko na yun!! hahahahahahahahahahahaha ok.

Jul 9, 2014 •

NABBWISIT NA NAMAN AKO SA NAALALA KO

KASI BA NAMAN HINDI TINANGGAP YUNG LIMANG THESIS INTRODUCTION KO NA PUTANGINANG PINAGHIRAPAN KO DAHIL LANG LATE AKO EH PUTA SIYA LATE DIN NAMAN SIYANG PROF SIYA AT IN THE FIRST PLACE LAST LAST WEEK PA DAPAT YAN PINASA EH WALA SIYA DAHIL PUTANGINA SIYA TAPOS GANON GANYAN ANG MALALA PA YUNG ISANG KAKLASE KO NA PUTANGINANG LATE DIN TINANGGAP MGA PAPEL NIYA HAYOP PUTANGINA PORKET KAIBIGAN NIYA NAGPASA SA PROF NAMEN PUTANGINA TALAGA MAMATAY NA SANA LAHAT NG GAGAMBA SA MUNDO PUTANGINA NILA PAPAKAIN KO SAKANILA THESIS KO GAGALINGAN KO TAPOS SASAMPAL KO SA PAGMUMUKA NG PROF AT DALAWANG HINAYUPAK NA KAKLASE KO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jul 9, 2014 •

Ambition and strong coffee

The characters tend to be vapid and flat. The plot tends to feel like there is no plot. The narrator tends to be annoying, unreliable. A liar. But this book. This book is actually really good! There are only a handful of books I’ve cried about and We Were Liars is one of them. I knew there was something unexpected coming but I didn’t know it will be that gruesome. It’s an effective suspense book in that it will keep you reading and wanting to know just what the fuck is really happening. I loved the Truth section more than anything. I didn’t expect to cry for the characters that got on my nerves. And though the writing style got a bit of hate for cutting words off midsentence or suddenly
becoming
like a
type of
poem
just like
this,
I loved it. That’s one of the main reasons why I gave this book five stars on Goodreads. There are times it seemed overwrought and cloying. Like honey. But over all, the imagery was smooth and the prose (lilting on the shade of purple) was poetic and beautiful and oftentimes fairytale-like. Despite the disappointment and hype over this book I can truly say that this one kept me up and became one of my favorites. Even after I finished it I couldn’t breathe properly. Could not think straight. And had to read it all over again.

Jul 8, 2014 •